BBB

tired of all these white girls
looking at me like I look at all
the other black boys

seems to me this complex
is psuedo oedipus shit
I constantly reevaluate
but still I can't get rid of it

I make eye contact
with the shorties I pass
inside and out of class

testing my self esteem
stretching to see if
me is as attractive as I think I is

but when I pass niggas
eyes hit the floor
like shit
dont even talk to them

and it is
kinda ridiculous
cauz I just wanna kick it
but I can't bring myself
to strike up conversation

pretentious
kid what you waiting ferr
scared that they gon judge you
like you be be judgin them

everything is a challenge
cant think of nothin to say to him
but in the mean time
you just fine
with them light
boys and girls

dont na'an one of them kiddies care bout you
listen to yr own words

On a moment to moment
I pray that it won't hit
but I still get the feeling of threat
it's emotional physical
grossly cyclical
and I swear I fucking hate it

I love but don't like you
and here I dwell
with people who feeling the inverse
towards me, trust me, their teeth
dwell under the pleasant smiles
and hand-down words

One too many niggers got spit
one too many nerves got hit
but I'm so scared of being alone
I muffle the surge in my bones that says

"You better tell these niggas where you came from
the course of making Harriet run
show them Angela, show them Malcolm,"
instead I show them Carlton

"What you be listenin to Saul for?
What you read James Bald' for?"

Oh, to say you did
when someone ask why you only be w/ white kids
sooth your conscious
boy be honest
if you hate your nest just say the shit
play Are You My Mother with skin
and dont be surprised when you get that SNORT
HA You must be good at sports
You would excell at physical work
I know you aint get your feelings hurt
sike, you know we was joking right?
WRONG
Word to my nigga Demi
I'll be goddamned if I let them send me
off like that
you den lost yr shit
if you think I'm finna get ran like this

I'M MAD INDIGNANT RIGHTEOUS STRENGTHENED
I'M BEGINNING TO TIGHTEN MY FISTS
OPEN MY THROAT, TO LET THEM KNOW THAT THAT IS IT
THEY AINT NEVER DEALT WITH THIS
THAT'S WHY THEY'ON WANNA UNDERSTAND IT
BUT THEY GON GET IT NOW, BOY
nigga calm down you know you ain't gon do shit

why are you so scared of yourself

because I think they are too